My new favorite restaurants in town are Linger and Root Down--LoHi's vibrant and vegan-friendly venues specializing in creative small plates. I also attended the Humane League's monthly vegan drinks event at Factotum Brewing (#75). After two years of trying to make friends in a new place, I've finally found "my people" in the vegan community (hoping this holds true in my next city).
I spent an exhausting but exciting day with Major Rick Smith, an enthusiastic and passionate pharmacist. We divided our time between two of the five pharmacies on base as I got a taste for what my life could be like as an Air Force pharmacy officer. Major Smith was patient to answer my questions in an effort to better understand the pros and cons of military pharmacy.
I can now admit that this path is not what I envision for the next chapter of my life. The trauma that ensued within the previous year changed me in several ways. Today, for example, I am stronger both physically and mentally. I have also discovered new passions and dreams. Last March, becoming an Air Force pharmacy officer was the only thing on my radar. While I still remain interested in the opportunity to serve, I need a fresh start as I move forward with my life. Turning 26 this month confirms the fact that I have time to put this opportunity on hold while I chase a different dream. I am more excited by the possibility of relocating to Oregon—a new place, job, apartment, and the freedom to choose all of these things. I suppose I’m not ready to marry the military just yet. So yes, did the painful process of re-selection influence my decision? Sure. More importantly, however, it allotted me the time to grow and find the courage to walk away from something that was no longer meant for me.
Life-altering decisions such as these are stressful, yet I take comfort in the belief that there are no "right" or "wrong" decisions. We simply choose and the universe shifts as you move in that direction. Although the decision has been made at last, the road ahead is risky and slightly terrifying. I am also sensitive to the fact that my choice likely let down a number of people who invested a lot of time and support surrounding my military pursuit. This is difficult for me to accept, but I stand behind my decision to remain true and honest. I would like to take this opportunity to thank everyone in my life whose continued love and support has given me the strength to overcome.
